Can it be?

Here we are, 5 1/2 years later and we have a positive pregnancy test.

Almost 2 years ago, Geoff and I talked and decided maybe it was time to turn our family of 3 into a family of 4.  It certainly wasn't a snap of the finger and here's baby. God has his own way of deciding when the time is right for each and every person.  Clearly it wasn't our time.  Carson would ask on a regular basis about having a brother or sister.  He would ask if we could say a prayer to Jesus to ask for a baby brother or sister.  Try holding back your tears when a little one asks you that. Its hard!! So sweet, thoughtful and just every bit of Carson, not surprising.

We are in the middle of trying to buy a house, supposed to close the middle of February.  I have been beyond stressed about it. Sunday (01/25) I realized I was a few days late and I wasn't feeling well.  I just kept getting these waves of nausea.  Very odd. I didn't even think twice about being late because I had been so stressed, I figured that was why.  But, I decided to take a test that afternoon, just in case. Sure enough, what do you know.  A BIG FAT POSITIVE! I had to look at it a few times to make sure I wasn't seeing things. A year and a half of taking tests and getting a negative result, your eyes will start to play tricks on you. I even took a photo and stared at that. No joke.

Monday morning (01/26) I went straight to Dr G's office, no appointment, just went right there.  Peggy, his nurse, gave me a huge hug.  Unfortunately Dr. G wasn't there and I saw Dr. Smith. He did a sono to see if he could see anything and I was too early, nothing but a uterus.

Blood work confirmed the pregnancy. I got the phone call today (01/28) that my HCG is 484 and Progesterone is 17.2.

Regardless how this may go, I am going to enjoy these moments. I've been down the negative road, I know the reality.  But at this moment, I am pregnant, Carson is getting a brother or a sister and that is all that matters.